clarification

hey y’all me again. i’d like to unpack my statement about lying a little bit. and also state that it was not in reaction to brad lying to me. he is a terrible liar actually, if i may be honest. sorry brad. i spilled your secret. so yeah, all the times brad has lied to me, i’ve always known. probably never said anything, but always did. like when he told me that he loved justin. or maybe it was my definition of love when speaking of justin is just very different from his definition of love. mine borders obsession. regardless, i never accused him of lying to me when he said he loved justin. i just realized it is what it is. and have almost moved on completely from it.

so here’s the deal. whenever i take one of those spiritual gift tests, there are a few definite things that come out of it. one of them is i have no mercy in my body. yeah, that is something i’ve been told is a good thing to actually have in your heart. and teaching is also very low. but i feel no guilt in that actually. on the other side of things, some gifts that come out on top are administration (my ocd tendencies) exhortation (or extortion as someone once told me…whatev they are a loser) and discernment. so yeah, anyways. i’m a pretty good discerner. and i’m not shabby when it comes to the brains…sorry, have to toot my own horn for a sec here. so, when someone i know is not being forthcoming or flat out lying…its not too hard to tell. now, sometimes, its just easy for even a stranger to tell, because some people when they lie have specific mannerisms that give them away. others are not as lucky. so…yeah. when this particular person in my life started with the whole “lets not be forthcoming with thoughts or actions on a particular situation”, it took about 1 time for them to lie to me to realize it. and its continued to be this way for the past month. i have talked to one person about as just a means of venting…but it is something i have and will have to continue to keep somewhat private until i decide what my role in this situation is. so while i will public say lying and this particular situation are “not hot”…the details might never see the light of this blog.

a warning to those of you out there…if you want to lie or not be forthcoming…your choice. still feel embarrassed for you like a lot and do not get why lying is your choice for “handling” this issue. but whatever. your call. but you probably don’t want to be posting pictures on your facebook and then say we happened to both be at the same place at the same time….like you didn’t plan it out or writing blog posts about it….people read blogs and email them to other people…uh yeah. or don’t leave a comment on a blog i read every day. yeah, the internet is pretty wide open…

that is all. i just wanted everyone to know that i wasn’t accusing brad of lying to me and then also talk about some other stuff on my mind. if brad did lie, i would call him out on in via texting. or face to face. depends on the lie probably. and i think proof of brad and i still being ok is that we both were at the same bball party last night jumping for joy/shock when ku pulled to tie it with like .6 seconds left. ohhhh rock chalk championship. (i practiced the whole way home brad!!)